Baby Milly – One year later

Hi, I’m 21 years old now. So I’m now a 21 years old baby. YEAH.

I had my birthday party last month.  It was in an Indonesian restaurant. It was GOOD. I even had a birthday cake. Because I was 21, they made sure it was an alcoholic birthday cake. It was GOOD. But actually it was BAD. Alcohol doesn’t do anything but ruin the taste of good expensive cakes. But, whatever.

So I’ve decided to become more feminine. It’s not easy but it’s not difficult either. For instance, wearing mascara and lipstick is easy for me. I do it at least twice a week. And just so you know, I have a Shu Uemura eyelash curler. And I wear bracelets now. So externally, I’m a little bit more feminine but internally, I got a long way to crawl.

When I actually started this project, it opened my eyes to how feminine people are like. And they are so gentle and soft and beautiful. In a lot of ways – speech, demeanour, expression, et cetera. It opened my eyes to how I am too. Rough, direct, shameless, uncouth, et cetera. So it’d be good if I can be a little like those people. I think it would benefit the whole world.

Right now, writing this now, I feel pretty lonely.

It’s okay.

I’m here to learn and be grateful. It’s not easy to do those two things.

I’m nobody. I don’t even know what I want to be.

I just wish there’s only you. The world would be so beautiful if there was only you.  And there is only you. It’s just that I’m hallucinating.

Ha.

I think I’ll stop now and delete this page later.